"Every day I would think: 'I won't be playing in a year.' And I drank to take away the pain and misery. I wasn't looking at what I drank. It was just volume and strength. I wouldn't drink something I like if it was three per cent proof. I'd drink something horrible that was 40 per cent proof. The quicker I got a hit, the better. And every time I took a drink, it was because a voice in my head told me to. The voice was scary and the only way I could get rid of it was by having a drink. Then, sometimes, I'd manage not to drink for two weeks and the voice would go away and I'd think: 'I'll just have a casual drink, just one.' Then the voice would come back and I'd be drinking heavily again...
I thought the left side of my face had dropped that I was blind in my left eye, deaf in my left ear. I started getting pains down my left arm a prickling in my elbow... I had a double whisky and another, until the panic and pain went away. After a couple of hours the same thing happened again. I drank some more...
I was so scared I went to the hospital. I hadn't had a stroke, but I didn't accept that drink was the cause of what happened... I drank all the way to the clinic thinking: 'This will be my last...
There are still bits of Gazza in me, but they aren't the mad, drunken Gazza. I'm more Paul Gascoigne now. It was a tough life being Gazza."
- Paul 'Gazza' Gascoigne, 'Glasgow Sunday Mail'